The last few weeks have been exhausting to say the least. We got a court date for P, then my dad passed away, then we got a court date for G (in January), then just as I was getting ready to travel to Uganda, we lost the court date for P. Losing the date was all a big misunderstanding with our attorney in Uganda, and although I was hugely disappointed at first, we are completely at peace with it all now.
I feel like I am finally able to breathe for the first time in a month. I just want to be here and be present. I want to get through the holidays and mourn the passing of my father. If I had gone to Uganda, I would have gone from one very emotional experience to another with little time to process either of them before heading back to Uganda in January. I was willing to do it if that was how it was supposed to go, but I also have always heard that God only gives us what we can handle. I feel like this was a huge answer to prayer.
So, for now it is life as usual with just our family of 5. The heaviness of loosing my father is slowly lifting and in its place excitement is growing. Excitement that we will be traveling to Uganda in January, and Lord willing, find favor in the eyes of the judges and bring both girls home to live in our family forever.
While I was hoping to have the girls home by Christmas and to even celebrate one of the girl's birthdays while I was there in November...this is right. This plan, that is not of our own doing, is right.
I don't think I have never felt more at peace in my life than I do right now. It truly is a peace that passes all understanding and for that, I am thankful!